3/28/13 Good day

What a great day beyond the muck of my brain. Woke up in a close and lovely friend's home to have her home to myself in Pacific Beach. I had full access to Netflix and proceeded to watch a film on street art. I ate some grapes, drank coffee, and looked through a book about traveling in New York City. Then I was inspired and used her straightener and makeup and did myself all purty. I also wore my friend's clothes that were much more fabulous than how I usually dress. I felt beautiful.

Then I went to the bay by her house and sat, thank, and took photos of myself. I took in the air and water.

Then I walked about 2 miles to Mission Beach. I went and sat in the sand for a little while, pulling my shirt down to tan my shoulders. It was such a beautiful day. I love feeling the heat of the sun. It is like a drug and provides me so much internal and external warmth and energy.

Then I walked back to Pacific Beach and went into a shoe store. I got five pairs of shoes for teaching - really scoring.

Then I went to Buffalo Exchange. I literally said out loud when I got there, "Uh. I don't want to shop right now!" I was complaining about the privilege and gift of shopping. Well, I got an even greater gift inside that has never happened to me when trying on 9 articles of clothing - they all ended up fitting and working! I got them all! To know something about me, I struggle getting new clothes and shoes. I am picky and things just don't tend to fit right. It was wonderful.

Then I went into Fred's Mexican Cafe and talked to my kind waiter for about 7 minutes to figure out how we can make their veggie burrito vegan (the rice were cooked in chicken broth, etc). It was also happy hour so in the meantime it was being prepared, I had myself a blended House margarita as I sat looking through the window towards the road. I was skimming more through my friend's book on New York. My phone was also dying so I had to figure out a way to get home.

My burrito came out and I happily ate my custom-made meal. I talked on the phone with my lovely friend who hosted me so kindly, and she gave me great advice that pushed me forward - pushed me forward just to be happy. It was a moment for me, and I have been happier 7 hours since that conversation and life already has a whole new glow. I just have to keep it up.

It's been a great day because I took time to be in nature, ease my mind, take in the sun, buy things for myself I will need for my interview, summer of training, and once I'm a teacher. I'm also happier now and feeling more liberated and in connection with my friends. Spent a bit today reconnecting with wonderful souls I am blessed to know. They filled me with love, support, kind words, and happiness.

Life is good.

~Jess

... I am grateful for the ones that are there, and the stars I see constantly <3

Thinking negatively pretty much all day, dwelling on disappointment, dissatisfaction with friendships, literally just googled "How to deal with disappointment" and I get a call from a friend I have a beautiful connection with that I hung out with last too many months ago. Sometimes I don't understand how people care so much about each other and don't keep in touch, but it's something I'll just have to accept.

A call from this friend uplifted me, reminding me people do care, I care, and that reality is truly shaped by our internal world. This friend reminded me what it means to have an internal world that is colored and flowered and beautiful - he radiates that and he pushes me to be that way.

Thank you, dear friend, for pushing me forward and getting me a bit more out of this disappointment spell. I hope to figure out more what my emotions are telling me...

Lots of love,
Grateful for my friends,
Jess

getting more in tune . . .

Getting more in tune with myself
Listening to my soul
Hearing what I should practice
Hearing what will make my life better
Practicing being true to myself
Pursuing my true wants
Preserving my health

Diet.Spirituality.Exercise.Emotions.MentalHealth.Intellect.Love.Society.Friends.Family.Nature.Responsibilities.Self-growth.Culture.MyFuture.



All elements of my well-being I am prioritizing and working on and fighting for when I need to.


In lots of love, health, and joy of being deeply content in the now,
Jessica B

Hanging out with friends for...?

Enhancing the state of mind

--> again and again ---> profound transformation

I have amazing friends who take care of me in my times of need. I love them. One in particular inspires me to be better and grow.

Love,
Jess


Grateful.

I love the amazing people in my life I call my friends. They do more for me than they know. < 3

Friends, Music, and Art. Thank you for getting me through this.

Without friends...

Without friends my life would be dull and depressing.
So grateful for the ones I love and am loved by.

<3

Life really is what you make it. Every day we must choose to be strong. To overcome. To be positive. To truly live the life that we have. To love. Thanks for all the people who are part of my life. I am sorry for all the times I've gone crazy on you, I am learning and applying. I care for you, my friends, and am excited for all the places we will take our lives =) Good day to you!